Bee Ona

As it’s the month of love, I’ve been thinking about certain things and people. Mainly men. The men I’m speaking about seem to have it all inside them but the struggles of their hearts show when they are down and out even a little bit. Sometimes when going through certain things your level of knowledge, your old trauma can have a major effect on you, unnecessarily.

What I mean by this is instead of utilising the healing, the knowledge for your good and trusting yourself more.. you continue to berate yourself and become harder on yourself in the worst way.

What does it mean to be hard on yourself?

It means when the world is hitting you on your back, you don’t encourage yourself, you hit yourself harder. And for some people that works, especially when there’s a situation happening and you’ve got to be tough to power through it…but in this case I think I’m talking about a spiritual problem. It’s even funnier if the person is spiritually inclined. If they’re never enough for themselves, even though they’ve done the best they can with what they have and their situation, they’ll never be enough for anyone or anything.

Someone told me that the inner voice that we sometimes don’t listen to, we should.

That’s what I think it means to be hard on yourself: inside yourself you know, “I’m not treating myself well, this is happening to me and I’m just not getting it right. I don’t look good; I don’t feel good. I’m being targeted but I’m trying to do everything I can.” Practicality and processes in life come in very handy at this point. Feeding yourself with love and nourishing your soul will give you back that enrichment you deserve.

Why I bring Bob Marley into this is because he is one of the most unrefined people I think has had so much success in the world. To me his success is absolutely admirable and this is down to his children too. He changed the world through music, brought people of different faiths together, people of different colours together and really brought reggae music to the forefront whilst trying to stay true to his values of love and faith.

Bob was a Rastafarian, people who have a lot of pride, a lot of faith and a lot of belief in what’s right and what’s wrong.

Rastafarian: a follower of the Abrahamic religion that developed in Jamaica during the 1930s. Rastafarianism is classified as both a religious movement and a social movement.

However, he was a lover and learner first.

When I look into the characters that inspired this article, I think “why not you?”

What happens when you’re down and out and you’re excessively hard on yourself and you over do it with the righteous stuff? What happens when you don’t give yourself love and grace when you’ve been pouring into everyone else? Why not you too? You’re starting to look ill, act ill and begin to create an illness from this self hatred (this is inadvertently)

They might have done all the work in the world, but they are hard on themselves and that is what will give them inner conflict they don’t need and shouldn’t have.

For example: an apple that is peeled, is peeled..you can’t actually add the skin back onto the apple. It’s almost as if they unpeel and unpeel to be righteous and end up being unrighteous towards their basic human needs. Shedding and shedding until there is nothing covering you…

An ego is used and needed for a purpose, to protect you, allow you to stand strong, and allow to you continue in the pursuit of some things.

Utilise your wants so you can get what you need.