Bee Ona

Feeling like the new person or being alone and observing the world from yourself and only yourself is a new experience.

I lived with people once upon a time and now I don’t. It’s weird. It’s a lonely experience where you don’t feel alone but you are essentially.

Being around people is a blessing and a curse because sometimes they can be annoying… but when you’re not around them even a little percentage remembers “oh that thing they did”. It’s about the environment and the energy around. Even if you don’t speak, talk or interact with them, the environment change is something to take note of.

Being alone, feeling alone, and being lonely all mean different things. Being lonely is a deeper sense. Being alone is practical to me – if you’re here by yourself with the absence of people, you’re alone. Feeling alone comes with it sometimes, not having that person that is on call for you and that you can call 24/7 with whatever is on your mind. Even though there might be people or persons in your phone book, staying in an environment with a lot of people and not having to think about reaching out was a different experience.

It feels more like being misplaced, temporarily.