Bee Ona

The one about navigating life, healing and its challenges.

Finally, I’m posting/writing directly in WordPress.

Hi few readers, long time no speak. It’s been a while, but I’m here…

I have had a lot I’ve wanted to share, but this time I’m actually doing it.

I’ve questioned myself a lot this week. I had a situation that didn’t go exactly as planned and I may have lost something really dear to me. I can’t be extra sad because the spiral is something I don’t think I can afford.

Letting that go though and doing something to help process the feelings, I felt blank. What now?

What am I made for? What do I do with myself?

I slightly do know what I want… I want money. I want my body to be fully healed. If it was that easy, I would want that person back.

I’m sure something healing has taken place somewhere in me recently but I don’t want to talk too much. Time will tell. May it be well.

So, what am I made for? I make people laugh, I make people smile. I give compliments. I write. I articulate. I dance. Where does that leave me though when I don’t have the strength? When I’m going through real things, what can I do?

When I don’t want to apologise but society says I should because I maybe replied late? When I want to stop faking it and performing? What am I to do?

What am I made for? I haven’t asked God, I don’t know if I’ve really found the answer here either. Will time also tell with this? I suppose fitness and health is key. Being mentally and physically stronger, honouring myself and being aligned – always. If it was up to me, what would I truly be doing?

What I do know though is realigning with my values has helped. This week I moved. I gave. I cried. I shopped. I bought myself some flowers. I was honest. I spoke up.

I wrote…

What do you think you were made for, if anything? Let’s ponder.